I'm a lakers fan.
What? I'm from LA:)

No one is afraid of heights, no one is afraid to play, no one is afraid of the dark.. they're afraid of not being loved back.

I think that when you are young, you are hoping that this person will be the right one, the one you are going to be in love with forever.  But sometimes, you want that so much, you create something that isn't really there. 

- Johnny Depp.

Last Day of November.

I'm so happy!! :) I got a 96% on my chemistry test:) which I studied so hard for, and on my spanish presentaion, I got a hundred percent:) I think Mr. Felix likes me! And all along, I thought he thought I was such a brat.  Okay, so I probably am. ha:) One time, a long time ago, before tenth grade, my mom said that she was going to register school for me, at Juan Diego, and all of a sudden, I became this brat, and said that if I went there, I'd fail all my classes.  That worked:) My parents are so weird.  Today, my dad was cooking dinner in the kitchen, and my mom was on the way home from work, and they were talking to each other on the phone. They STILL talked to each other on the phone while my mom was inside the house.  Wierd, isn't it?! :) I love my family:) They're the best.


Oh wow, my mood just changed.  I haven't been this sad since weeks ago:( I hate it. Whatever, I need to stop.  This is freaking ridiculous.  :(

You chose to surrender the best thing that has happened to you.
Running away from your fear is the best you can do. 
division - aly & aj.

Couldn't sleep last night.  I had another one of those joker nightmares.  I'm so freaking paranoid. If I actually see this guy in real life, I'll be hysterical.  So anyways, I woke up at like 3 in the morning, called my friend, who lives in ogden, and we talked for a bit. THEN, he told me to be quiet and go to sleep, while still on the phone with him:) what a sweetheart!! :)
First - he picks up the phone IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT.
Second - he calms me down, because i'm a chicken.
third - we were on the phone for 2 hours and like 40 minutes, while i fell asleep.
:):)
Anywaaaays, i have my chemistry essay to do, but i just don't want to do it.;
i already did my dumb spanish compartirs.
wooo:)
okay, goodnight.
it's twelve. and i'm so exhausted.
hope i don't get another one of those nightmares.

I love The Maine.

I wish I could get dressed like this.

I don't know how people can sneeze like this, 

When I sneeze it's like,

And you can count on me, like one to three, i'll be there.
I was up till three in the morning watching the most HORRIBLE movie, ever. And I was going to go to sleep, afterwards, but then, my friend needed me.  So I stayed up.  Drew wilkey's bestfriend died, and I wasn't sure what to do! :( we talked and stuff, but I really want him to find closure.  RIP Drew's friend.

Anyways, I just got asked out on a date:) we're going bowling.  Hahah, i love going bowling. But umm, i turned him down. I don't know why! I'm turning down like every single freakn guy.  I used the homework excuse, which is partly true..  Because I have this dumb ap history map due tomorrow. And I just don't want to do it.. But I should! :)  Pluuus, I promised my little sister that I'd take her to go see tangled:) that should be a blast! :)
I love movies, can't you tell?


I can't believe it's over. Just like that. It bugs me, and I know I keep saying that I'm moving on, but I'm not. It's not helping one bit. I'm in denial. And I better change. Soon.

A man who wants to make a relationship work will move mountains to keep the woman he loves.  If he's not calling you to tell you he loves you and wants you back, it should only be because he's showing up at your new residence to do it in person... If he's not doing any of that, he may love you, he may miss you, but ultimately, he's just not that into you.  Stop taking his calls, or texts, and let him know what it's like to live without you.

- He's just not that into you. 

I hate awkward moments.
I mean, what am I supposed to do during them?  Walk away? I don't know.  I've never been much of a talker, which is so hilarious, cuz my friends disagreee. Everyone says that I like shy guys..  You know what they say, opposites attract.  The loud girl likes the shy guys, or viceversa. SO untrue, but lately, that's whats been happening.  There's this kid, his name's tyler meek:) and apparently, he says that i talk a lot:) i sit next to him in mathlab, and i don't even do my work, i just sit there, and talk, and talk, and talk to him:) and he's so stinking cute:) but i just don't.. really see a 'spark' so they say:) I don't think i'm normal at all.  Every boy that nature has to throw at me, nothing works. It's like I'm a one-night stand, and boom, it's over. That doesn't even make sense. As if nature cares what happens to me. 
:( 

"a wise man once told me boyfriends are a waste of time and boy was he right." - Rodriguez.


Jayvee Nguyen;
your a jerk, had me going there for a second.  So, my bestfriend, told me that he 'shanked' a dude, and that they were trying for five-ten years. I went hysterical.  I felt like attacking anyone innocent near me. He told me, that he was "in the moment" and so he just went for it.  I'm kind of not surprised.  He's the type of umm, bad, kid.. My family dislikes him, but who cares? I'll be friends with whomever I want. I really like Jayvee:) He's kind of the only person I allow to call me babe, or whatever.  I probably tell him that i love him more than anyone in the world:) So then, i went berserk, and SWORE at him.  And then he told me that he was kidding.. woops. I don't know what I would do without my bestfriend:)
 

You don't have to feel like a waste a space.
You're original, cannot be replaced.
firework - katy perry.
 

Tell me how you describe colors to a blind person.

my number one priority is to make people laugh.
:)

You've taught me to love, but you didn't teach me how to stop. 

:)

it would help a ton, if you stayed out of my dreams.

ohh dear gosh.

Today is sunday! I'm having a wonderful day, thanks for asking.  It all started off with going to church at ten in the morning:) it was great:) i saw this kid, his name's jimmy, and whenever he hugs me, he lifts me up:) isn't that the sweetest thing? :) haha, anyways, he texted me during church because he got in trouble, and i'm an idiot, and i wasn't paying attention.. so he told me, and i laughed at him. for being such an idiot:) Afterwards, like every sunday, my family goes to some Vietnamese restaurant, and we pretty much just eat:) that's what happened.  AFFTERR, we went home, and i took a nap, before having to go back up to slc, for church confession.  You pretty much just confess your sins. Es muy bueno:) then, my dad had a barbecue at home, and we invited families and friends to come over.  One of my dad's friend, gave us a hundred books to go to coldstone. Coldstone was closed:( so we went to Walmart, and bought thirtybucks worth of ice cream:) mmm, sounds fun, yes? :) i haven't touched mine yet. But, i probably should. I got starbucks:) Then, i watched two scary movies.  Well, one and a half.  The grudge 3, and House of the dead. FREAAAAKKKY. I was horrified.  I don't know if i'll be able to sleep tonight. 

I love everyone. for all the distraction they're giving me.  I gotta say, it's helping me move on:)  lalalala:) i love music:):):) I WANNNNNTT TAYLOR SWIFT'S NEWWW ALBUM!!! SPEAK NOW:) I think i'll go to target and buy it:) i love her song superman:) it's really good:)

I miss last year. It was the best year of my life:) not only did i met my bestfriend drew, but i broke my shell:) i was officially, talkative..

My psychology color is yellow:) and coincidently.. my favorite color is yellow:)

hmmmmmm..

I LOVE LUAN NGUYEN:)
even though he's a freak.
and an idiot.
and works at f21,
and i'm pretty sure he's not gay.
or is he?
he dresssess classsy.
but that's him:)
we had a conversation on psycho moms..
let me correct myself,
psycho VIETNAMESE moms.
but guys, don't worry:) i'm not psycho.


..
he should move down to lehi, and not westvalleyy:)

JFHGSKGHSHGKSGHSJKFGHSDKFHGSKJGHSKJGHSKJGSDJK.
the end.

If you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as heck don't deserve me at my best.  

my life,

Uno: No matter how hurt you feel, or how badly your heart has been broken, the world does not stop for your grief. 


Dos:  I've learned that the people you care most about in life, are sometimes taken from you too soon.  


Tres:  We do not remember days, just moments.

Whew,

I finished my english homework!! :) Sad part? I need to do my chemistry! :( not to mention, i want to get started on my essay for chemistry.  Today, i was on a roll:) no joke.  I'm taking precalculus with lambert, and i've been behind on my assignment.. BUUUT, I finished assignment: 7, 8, &9 today!! :):) they were easy like a lemon:)

So i've decided, that boys are dumb..

 Don't make a girl fall for you, if you have no intention of catching her.  

It's been happening a lot lately.  I hear gossip, relationship breaks-up, the whole nine-yard.  Not to mention, I'm a victim of it myself.  It's okay, I'm learning how to understand.  What some boys don't understand, is that girls have this fairytale image in their head.  You gotta let it slide, we were little girls once.  Boys were boys once too.  With their legos, and their star wars action figures.  I thought some people grew out of it during junior high.. WRONG. No, we're still learning.  For example. I walked into the library the other day, and kids were playing playing cards like yugioh, or something..  Yeah, true fact.  We have not grew up or have matured at all, even though our facial hair may say so. Point is, boys shouldn't treat girls like we're their shiny new toys. And then leave them, for another new shiny toy like we're trash.
Unacceptable.

I failed my spanish test. Yeah, es no bueno! however, i studied today, and realized, "WOW, I WAS SO DUMB!! " hahaha, i understand espanol now:) it's pretty.. easy. I guess:)
HOLY FLIPPIN COW, IT'S 11:30.  Last i checked, it was 7.

Goodnight world:)
but seriously,
who else besides jayvee reads this?
yeah, that's what i thought.

oldoldoldoldold.

Life goes on.

I'm happy:) why? I have no idea:) Buut, it's happened. I'm moving on.  On thanksgiving, my parents are going away on a trip. boohooo. So thanksgiving dinner is going to be on the first week of december.  So this kid that I went on a blind date with, asked me to come over to his house for thanksgiving:) but umm, i turned him down. DINNER WITH HIS PARENTS!?!? I can't eat in front of people that I'm not familiar with. And it's only happened at least once in my life, and I don't know if i'll be able to.  I can honestly say.. I think he likes me.  He never stops texting me, and he's just the cutest thing. He never makes me wait for his texts, and it's great:)  But no, I just don't want to like anyone.  That's a fact.

MOVING ON.
I have two tests to study for, and a quiz. To top that off, I haven't done my history homework, or my math.
I'm screwed. I'm really tired. I don't know if I want to wake up early and study or not. I'm scared. Maybe that's what I'll do. After all, my spanish test isn't all that important.. :) ahahah, just kidding! it is, i get college credit, so i better study!!! :) 

I can't wait to seeeeee my best girls tomorrow! :) Lexee Nelson, and Dani Mathis, and Maddie Klein. It's weird, Lexee called us the DLM squared. with the little two. hahah:) get it? :) yeah, last 'b' day, we finished our group project, and were looking through magazines and finding pictures and stuff to 'send' to each other.. AND I FOUND THE MOST DIRRRRTIEST one. No kidding.. Who was the best person to send it to? LEXEE! hahaha:) it was great:) i love them:) they're my favorite. 

143. 

say cheese. or laugh. whichever. 
<3

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.

I screwed up big time.

:)

I need to stop procrastinating..

who even reads these anyways?

Jayvee Nguyen. That's who:)

My other half. My shoulder to cry on. My number one texter. and you know, we've probably sent each other over like 5 bajillion text messages this past week. He wanted me to dedicate this entire blog.. to him. just kidding:) no he didn't. But, that's what bestfriends do. We dedicate things. Just today, he was able to make me feel so much better over text message, and that shows true friendship:)

BUUUUUUUT, anyways:) that's my mustache. Okay, I'm not going to lie.  I spent HOURS taking picture after picture after picture before settling on his one. Ohh jeez, I know, I'm a freak. but one of my FUNNIEST ones was this:

Don't ask me why. k? 

Half of my heart's got a grip on the situation.

Half of my heart takes time. 

Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you..

That I can't keep loving you.

John Mayer. 

On the other hand, today has been such a surprising day! 

First off, I found out that my mom won't be here for Thanksgiving, because she's going on another trip. To california. This has got to stop, my mom's taking so many trips! And so, thanksgiving dinner will be first-week-of-december dinner. yeaah:) way to be, mother.  Secondly, I think maybe whatever just happened today, would be good for me. Less distractions. I'll get my grades up. And I won't have to deal with drama anymore.  

my favorite thing to do,

is watch reruns of csi:miami, and drink orange juice.
and sometimes, i like to drink hot chocolate.
k.

This is madness.

I slept for eleven hours. Now that's madnesss. Yeah, so I missed school today. No big deal.  Umm.. Yeah, i felt really dizzy, so I stayed home. And when I woke up, I found a pot full of porridge and a cup of hot medicine to drink on the counter with my name next to it. Since it's almost thanksgiving, and I'm in such a thankful mood, I'm thankful that my parents care for me, like no other.  Anyways, my life is going downhill, but hey, there's a reason for everything. I've decided that there are four things I need to remember to get by in life. First, to remember that whoever comes into your life are the right people.  Second, whatever happens is the only thing that could have. Third, whenever it starts is the right time. And last, when it's over, it's over. 

LOVE CONQUERS ALL. 

Seriously,

I know life is unfair, but this is freaking ridiculous. 

Today, I realized that you don't know what you have until it's gone. I can't believe it's taken me this long to realize it. Okay, so maybe not so long, but maybe a couple of hours.  I've lost so many things in life, it's not even funny. And this time, I'm willing not to lose what I've wanted for so long. No seriously, i'm not even sure if i want to drop everything. Not now, not without trying for a second chance. But sometimes the hardest thing to do, is the right thing to do.